Being an only child, the baby granddaughter on one side, and the baby grandchild on the other, I have had quite the opportunity to be a spoiled brat. Growing up, I'm sure the spoiled side came across frequently, although I don't think I made it to the brat mark all to often. I think, though, in my adult years, I have become an extremely giving person, and am pretty much willing to do anything for anybody within reason. I have made numerous sacrifices for my students and my family (mostly) without complaining. I want those around me to be happy and successful, and have a hard time saying no to a task without a good reason.
Sometimes, I even have a hard time saying no when I have a good reason...me! I have a fear of failure and disappointment, and don't want to let others down...even when it is truly in my best interest to change my situation or circumstances.
This leads me to what I'm proud of about myself. It wasn't one exact moment or situation...it was several. My life was going downhill fast. I was miserable. Certain aspects of my life had become toxic to my health and happiness. So, for the first time in my life, I did what was best for me. I didn't care about how other people might react, or that I would be judged by those who didn't truly understand my situation or intentions. I walked away. From an unhappy marriage. From an unhealthy lifestyle. From people who were bringing me down instead of building me up.
Because of that, I have begun to discover who I am. I have surrounded myself with loved ones who truly make me a better person. I can say honestly I am proud of who I am and who I am still becoming.
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